If I cried im front of the world
No one would notice
not one eye would flicker in my direction

My heart beats in my throat
My mouth is pouring with blood.
Like venom to a wound
Until I can't take it anymore and my heart
flies out of my mouth and into the toilet
along with my soul

I may never gain it back.




I am so badly hurt. This has been the most painful year of my life. The only guy i ever loved left me for another girl and to top it off they are happy. I am a nomad and i no longer have a soul. I keep telling myself to get over it, but i can't. How can he just move on? There were too many lies that I can never forget. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of them. They haunt my dreams and every thought of happiness that i've ever had in my life lies with them. I let my walls down for him. I comitted. That is something that I never do. For what? Nothing.