| Conundrum |
[Feb. 11th, 2006|01:30 pm] |
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| | "God Only Knows" Mandy Moore | ] |
I might Have to move to Lancaster. I hate it there. If I move it will be in about a month or so. I'm so sad. If I move I will miss LA soo much. Every person here has made my exoerience in LA so fantastic. I'm sad. I don't know what to do. Should I stay or should I go? |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 3rd, 2006|10:14 pm] |
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| | "Soul meets body" Death Cab for Cutie | ] |
This is the most boring party i've ever been to. I want to go home now. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 7th, 2006|11:22 am] |
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| |  drunk | ] |
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| | "Luxurious" Gwen Stafani | ] |
So this guy's name was Micheal. He was a hottie. Russian...need I say more? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 6th, 2006|03:03 pm] |
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| | "under pressure" | ] |
Apparently I am an uptight bitch and I need to get the stick out of my ass. mmmk... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|01:14 pm] |
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| | "goodies" Ciara | ] |
So I met a guy last night. I wonder if he really going to call me or not. Whatever if he does call me back it will be a total surprise because i never call people that I hooked up with at patries. It's just too akward you know? Whatever he was cute and his name was Sean.
Peace |
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[Dec. 29th, 2005|10:46 pm] |
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| Ummmm...Yea... |
[Dec. 29th, 2005|07:56 pm] |
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| |  worried | ] |
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| | "Jammin'" Bob Marley | ] |
I'm going to start the new year with a fresh attitude. I'm going to try not to be so depressed and maybe i'll be able to get a man. I think I'm holding on to a lot and i just need to let it go. So many guys have just used me and kicked me to the curb and I won't let it happen anymore. I can't forget what they did, but I can get over itand not let anyone treat me like that anymore.
Welcome to the new me...
Well not that new Just positive. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|07:21 pm] |
What is my social status?
I still don't know. |
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| O holy night.... |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|09:56 am] |
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| | Nine Inch Nails | ] |
So my friend who shall remain nameless has left me unintentionally for her boyfriend. She does everything her boyfriend says. if he doesn't like one of her friends, she can't hang out with them anymore. That's the worst thing i ever heard, but it's true. I would never leave my friends for a guy, but i guess that's what seperates me from other people. When she dumps him and then wants to start talking to me, I won't be there. That sounds bad but if she picks her boyfriend over her friends she wasn't a really good friend anyway. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2005|02:13 pm] |
If I cried im front of the world
No one would notice
not one eye would flicker in my direction
My heart beats in my throat
My mouth is pouring with blood.
Like venom to a wound
Until I can't take it anymore and my heart
flies out of my mouth and into the toilet
along with my soul
I may never gain it back.
I am so badly hurt. This has been the most painful year of my life. The only guy i ever loved left me for another girl and to top it off they are happy. I am a nomad and i no longer have a soul. I keep telling myself to get over it, but i can't. How can he just move on? There were too many lies that I can never forget. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of them. They haunt my dreams and every thought of happiness that i've ever had in my life lies with them. I let my walls down for him. I comitted. That is something that I never do. For what? Nothing. |
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| AHHHHH! |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|03:52 pm] |
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I might actually like someone...i'mscared <3 |
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| Christmas |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|09:35 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | um yea | ] |
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| |  confused | ] |
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| | "Blue" Eiffel 65 | ] |
Did i mention how much i hate the song "Silent night." It pisses me off. Yah so life i s boring as fuck. Which is why i have a livejournal i guess because there's nothing to do. This is second period. Every other day i come here and finish the homework i have not yet comepleted and then go online. Sometimes i hate school just because i means doing the same thing over and over again for a year. I wake up, get dressed and got to school. Come home do my homework, exercise, watch TV, read and live a life that someone else wants me to live. I completely realized that nothing i do the entire day is something i want to do. It's something that i have to do. If I don't go to school my mom will get sent to jail. If i go to school and not do anything i'll be homeless when i grow up. But then is being homeless really that bad? Well, of course it is, but at least i wouldn't have a job you know. Something you wake up to do everyday. People think that life is unpredictable, but really it isn't. You can predict evrything. We know we're going to die, but we just don't know when, so we waste our time doing what the government tells us to. Even people who rebel are some how comforming. So what's the point you know? When you think about it, all we're doing is wasting time before we die so that another person will take the space that fills up in this world. And everyone is searching for the same thing; happiness and their purpose in life."Was i meant to be a singer." "Is there really one person for everyone?" All that is bullshit. So why is it that it's so stressfull and in the mean time we are rotting ourselves. None of those great writers matter. It's just something fake we made up to confort ourselves. Love is not real, nothing is real. Everything is nothing. And the point life is, is that there is no point.
Maybe i'm crazy i don't know |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|05:51 pm] |
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| | "Toxicity" System of A Down | ] |
is this more than you gargain for yet? I've been dying to tell you anything you wanna hear, but that's just who i am this week. lying in the grass next to the moseleum....
I like this guy, but i know he'll never go for me. he's like the hottest guy in my school. eh i feel like it's a movie when i'm like the wierd girl that likes the guy that everyone thinks is cute and like you know what saying. Except this isn't a movie and i wo't get him. I don't think he look at me that way. AHHHH!
plan for this year.
1.Stop smoking
2.Like myself
3.Enjoy life
4.Get in touch with Tiff
5.Make peace with my mom |
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| Alcohol Madness |
[Dec. 6th, 2005|09:12 am] |
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| |  loopy | ] |
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| | "Sweet dreams" Marylin Manson | ] |
You never really realize the effect a person has on you until you're away from them. I just moved away from my mom this weekend. She's an alcoholic. She was pissed about it. She was cussing me and my sister out saying shit like "What the fuck i don't even drink that much." She said this with a can of 211 in her hand and she was already drunk. She totally ruined alcohol for me man. evrytime i want to drink something i can't because i just think about how dumb she gets when she drinks and in no way possible do i want to be even classified as the same kind of person as my mother. I know you only get one mother and i should love her dearly, but i can't. She has to prove to me that she loves me more than drungs. What a hypocrit i am you know, but never would i give up my daughter for drugs and i will live that down day in and day out for the rest of my life.
Peace |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|05:04 pm] |
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 | You scored as Doug.
Doug | | 100% | Are You Afraid of the Dark? | | 100% | Legends of the Hidden Temple | | 92% | The Adventures of Pete and Pete | | 67% | Ren & Stimpy | | 50% | Clarissa Explains It All | | 33% | Rocko's Modern Life | | 33% | The Secret World of Alex Mack | | 33% | Double Dare | | 33% | Rugrats | | 33% | Kablam! | | 25% | </td>
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| Triangle |
[Nov. 22nd, 2005|05:45 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | confused | ] |
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| | "Violence" Blink 182 | ] |
Girl likes boy. Boy ask me out. Girl is my friend. What do i do?
Keep on mind i want to get LAID.
HELP! |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|04:02 pm] |
ya when i look in the mirror i hate it....
gross |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|12:28 pm] |
This is a really good song...
Listen To Your Heart
Words by , Music by Per Gessle & M.P. Persson
Published by Jimmy Fun Music
I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been when love was wilder than the wind. |
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